Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

What if this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we go, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but my heads spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
out of this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

( Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you )

Chorus:
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and then drowned the whole world
And while she looked so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles

Now how many days in a year
She woke up with hope
But she only found tears
And I can be so insecure
Making her promises never for real
As long as she stands there waiting
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes
Now how many days disappear
When you look in the mirror
So how do you choose

Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

[Chorus]

Now how many lovers would stay
Just to put up with this
Every day and all day
Now how did we wind up this way
Watching our mouths for words that we say
As long as we stand here waiting
Wearing the clothes or the soles that we choose
Now how do we get there today
When we're walking too far for the price of our shoes

Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

[Chorus]

[Guitar Solo]

This is the story of a girl
Who's pretty face she hid from the world
and while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her

This is the story of a - girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looked so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
When she smiles!



These lyrics are the lyrics that my best friend Lauren always sends me and makes me listen to whenever I'm sad. So I've never seen this song as a love song... to me this song has always been about a sad girl and her best friend.

You see I've always been the type of girl whose never been afraid to cry, I can't even couunt the times that I've run to Jackie, Lauren, Chelsea, or Jessine and just cried and hugged them. They've never cared, they've actually liked it, I'm over emotional. I just know that they've always been there for me... and I just always remember this one time after all that Zach stuff were done I was sitting in the grass with Chelsea talking about things with this sad look on my face and then... I smiled and Chelsea practically attacked me in a chorus of loud 'I love you so much, Leah!!!!!' from her.

There have been so many mornings that I woke up with hope believing that the day will be good, and by the end of the day... I'm crying. Darlene... one of my best friends, she's the worst person for me to talk too when I feel like crying... I love her but she isn't the nicest person in the world. So many friends have told me that they cared about me... it was never "I love ya, you know that" it was always "You're my friend" and then it ended. I've standed there waiting for true friends for years, and now I have them.

Like any other girl, I've felt many things before... I've had days where I've hated myself, where I've wished I was thinner and prettier. When I wished I wasn't so plain looking.

"I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't both bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's now what gets to me"



"What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do"



"It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken"



"What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do"



"Not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do"

Verse 1:
He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

Pre-Chorus:
And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us so

Chorus 1:
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.

Verse 2:
We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,
And the heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

Chorus 2:
He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.



( We are his portion and he is our prize, drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes, if grace is an ocean we're all sinking. )

Alright, I've been giving it some though and even though I'm only 16 years old and a sophomore, I've though about what I want to do with my life... since last year it's stuck to journalist, and yeah that ideas sticking but there are other jobs I see myself doing... such as photography... I'm always using my camera and I never am without it... then the thought of being a Broadway Actress came, I thought of that because well, I had so much fun doing Seussical, and I'd been thinking 'I could do this more someday.' But since Thursday I had a new idea...

Those of you who talk to me a lot know I'm not just really into the tv show Buffy the Vampire Slayer but I'm also really into the show, Bones. Anyway, I've been about this since Wednesday, on Wednesday in Biology after taking our test, our class had to do a new lab with our partners (Ashley is my bio-partner) anyway, this new lab was taking about owl pellets and looking at the bones inside them, yeah I know gross, not to me! I was in awe just by looking at those bones, anyways, I've been thinking, that's something I can do with my life, Forensic Anthropology, anyway I decided in speech class that I'd do my final speech on Forensic Anthropology! Cool, huh?

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

*****************

Love just never works out for me does it? Why can't I be like Darlene or Chelsea or Lauren? They have Dustin, Caleb, and Jason... who do I have? No one!

I mean, why can my friends find love and I can't? How can Lauren and Jason have started dating since the last day of 8th grade and now it's their senior year and their still in love? I mean, I started liking Zach and I thought it would be possible for us, but now I find out that he's not ready for a relationship and even if he was I wouldn't be his first choice? Maybe I'm just one of those people weren't meant to fall in love.

I hate boys... they just don't get it... (Well except for Jason... but he's more like a big brother to me^^)

Hey I come bearing a gift! LOL! Actually, it's a really awesome Tobias video that I made ^-^! And I really think you guys should watch it! Well, look for it under the cut! Oh by the way, I'll tell you the song I used! It's "Bring Me to Life" by Evanescence.

( Save me from the nothing I've become )

Well... my sophomore year starts tomorrow! I'm excited to see some of the people again... mainly Karla don't know what I would do with her! Planning on studying more this time around! Yeah... I'm excited and nervous lol

"Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?"

That part of the song is so perfect for me ^.^

lol... to much Harry Potter before bed... I had the wierdest dream last night it took place in my church... and Voldemort and other Harry Potter characters were there....

~*~*DREAM SEQUENCE*~*~

I looked around five of us (me, Alyssa, Ron, Harry, and Neville) were all standing in front of Lord Voldemort. I looked down at my hand a wand had suddenly appeared... my eyes brigtened and I looked at Alyssa.
"I love magic!!!!" I mouthed to her. Then I turned to glare at Voldemort.
"Expelliarmus!" I yelled then mine and Alyssa's mouth dropped open Voldemort had went sailing out the window.
"Uh Leah? Expelliarmus isn't supposed to do that." Alyssa said. I nodded.

~*~*End Dream Sequence*~*~

The wierdest part of it is usually I never have dreams.

Okay... well it's summer and I'm very bored... oi... it's finally summer I finally have good friends and not a single one calls me or invites me over!!!!!!!!! Oi.... boredom I hate it...

//Why, why are You still here with me//
I don't really understand how in the world my life can turn from upside down to....heaven... I suppose that's high school.
//Didn't You see what I've done?//
I don't believe I'm really someone who deserves all this...
//In my shame I want to run and hide myself//
It's unbelievable that she can look at me and smile and laugh and tell me that she will actually miss me...
//But it's here I see the truth//
Do they truly care?
//I don't deserve You//
I don't think I deserve any of them

//But I need You to love me, and I//
But if you weren't there... my life would be ruined and this year would've dragged on...
//I won't keep my heart from You this time//
Do I really have friends?
//And I'll stop this pretending that I can //
Or only one with people who feel sorry for me...
//Somehow deserve what I already have//
Don't ask me...
//I need You to love me//
I almost don't want summer to be here...

//I, I have wasted so much time//
They are so important to me
//Pushing You away from me//
No one can live their life without friends
//I just never saw how You could cherish me//
Ziel... you started this all you took me as your friend... in a place where I was scared...
//'Cause You're a God who has all things//
God wanted me to have people who truly cared
//And still You want me//
After last years disaster.... I now have hope...

//Your love makes me forget what I have been//
I can now say that I'm a good friend...if I keep a hold on my stupid emotions...
//Your love makes me see who I really am//
I'm a good person...
//Your love makes me forget what I have been//
Thank You...

Dedicated To: Ziely, Rozzie, Postma, Senie, Barla, Chelly, Hannah, Stealthy, Rob, Tim, and Vanilla...
From: Your Foxling friend

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M GONNA MISS YOU SO MUCH TIMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, when my friend Lisa boycotts exams then I'm going to help her by boycotting algebra ><... lol Basic Algebra 1 was my exam for today and tomorrow I have Old Testament Survery... that should be easy except for Hannah told me it was difficult and very very very long... I made a Doctor/Rose video today to make me happy though^^

Exams start on monday and right now my throat burns like crazy... I do not feel good at all.... to add to that if I don't pass my math exam then I have to retake the class again... I'm getting tired of school...

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I'm going to go to see POTC 3 with the 'Jack Sparrow Fanclub' (which includes me, Lindsay, Karla, Senie, and Jackie) LOL we're not really the Jack Sparrow fanclub we just call ourselves that! Well I'll tell everyone how it was when I get back!

I just got a Jack Sparrow t-shirt today!!!!! WOO HE IS SO AWESOME!!! If I can I'll get a pic of me wearing but I might not be able to!

Woo!!!!! I went to see Spider Man 3 yesterday!!!!!!!!!

( People who make these trilogys must hate me )

//You come to me with your scars on your wrist//
As Will got off the Black Pearl Elizabeth turned around running over to Jack she kissed him on the cheek.
“I’ll miss you, Captain Jack Sparrow.” She said grabbing a hold of his hand.
//You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this//
“I suppose you truly can’t leave me, can you love?” Jack said to her.
//I just came to say goodbye//
Elizabeth scoffed.
“I just came to say goodbye.” She said.
//I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine//
Elizabeth looked down wiping tears from her eyes.
“It’s not like I’m going to miss you, I’m fine with leaving.” She said.
//But I know it's a lie//
Jack knew that she wasn’t telling the truth.
//This is the last night you'll spend alone//
Elizabeth looked down… she always felt alone when with Will… she didn’t want to be alone anymore.
//Look me in the eyes so I know you know//
She looked at Jack in the eyes.
//I'm everywhere you want me to be//
She knew she’d just begin seeing Jack everywhere again just like before.
//The last night you'll spend alone//
She wanted to be with Jack… so she wouldn’t be alone again.
//I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go//
She hugged him.
“I love you.” She whispered to him.
//I'm everything you need me to be//
“You know you don’t have to leave, I can be everything you want.” Jack said.
//Your parents say everything is your fault//
“My father would only blame me for it…” Elizabeth said.
//But they don't know you like I know you//
“That’s because he doesn’t truly know you.” Jack said smirking.
//They don't know you at all//
“He doesn’t know you at all.” He said.
//I'm so sick of when they say//
“I’m sick of what he says.” Elizabeth said.
//It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine//
She thought about her father telling her that thinking about Jack was just a simple phase.
//But I know it's a lie//
The lie bit her insides hard.
//This is the last night you'll spend alone//
She wanted this to be the last moment with Will.
//Look me in the eyes so I know you know//
She looked at Jack… he knew everything that she was thinking.
//I'm everwhere you want me to be//